I’m going to tell you a secret.

A short pause... yeah, i'm turning 40 in the next days.

Yeah, i’m turning 40 in the next days.

But that’s not really a secret. The secret is, that i’m fine with it!

Not overwhelmed, overstrained or unprepared, like I was, when I turned 30. I just don’t mind turning 40.

I thought about why that is and why it was different back then?

I think it has to do with the fact that I have “achieved” things these days that I couldn’t even imagine when I was in my late twenties.

At that time I wasn’t out, to name just one example. To be able to live my life with a man, to have a relationship, to be sexually desirable (and also to actively perceive it), to be able to live it out, to travel the world, to have a fulfilling job and to live in a fancy apartment in one of the most beautiful german cities… 10 years ago, all that would probably have seemed like a fairy-tale to me!

But I’ve achieved or at least experienced all of that in the past 10 years and that’s something I’m really proud of. Especially because i seldom focus on that. Usually i always focus on the negative aspects of life. Of course, they exist too, but you just have to learn from them, grow and go on…

So somehow I see myself on the right path, even if everything doesn’t always go as expected and not all dreams come and came true. But when I consider that all of the mentioned things have happened in the last 10 years, then I am already full of anticipation for the next decade and I’m curious where life will lead me.

So, Happy Birthday to me!!!!

(…and sorry if the blogpost wasn’t as exciting as the headline might have suggested, LOL)

4 comments on “I’m going to tell you a secret.

  1. Hallo Thomas,

    happy birthday to you, wann auch immer der genaue Tag ist. Dir scheint’s trotz allem gut zu gehen. Freut mich! Was für ein aufregendes Jahr war das für dich. Vor einem Jahr konnte ich den ersten Post von dir gelesen.

    Auf das dein neues Lebensjahr viel Neues, Aufregendes, Anregendes bringt!

    • Danke dir, Conny! Ja, mir geht es soweit sehr gut, wenngleich sich die Jobsuche etwas schwieriger gestaltet, als gehofft. Aber wofür ist man schließlich Optimist?! 🙂

  2. heavenliner

    Happy Birthday Sir… may the angels protect you and sadness forget you.

    Stay cool 😉

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